Meaning

I think all my life i have searched for meaning, wisdom and the "higher" knowledge. Searched for the true meaningof life, not wanting to make mistakes.. not allowing myself to feel, love, take risks, ultimately live.. Fear crimples me.. makes me not want to do anything lest i fail.. break a bone, get lost or worse weak. Two roads..either continue to be careful, or take a stab at life and explore.. go skiing.. hike more often.. marry!!! buy a house...perhaps if we strip down all the "must have"s we will live happy. If we are content with who we are and not look to be like someone else, we will live life to the fullest.